Had an amazing crazy time with onenine as usual omg seriously I think we're all bloody crazy last night wtf I was screaming at Lijing the entire time, we even taupok each other on the bed omfg hahha it's dam it funny!!!! Then we had heart to heart talk till like 4 plus. I really spilled everything out idk why, maybe it's bcos I've been bottling things up. But it's good and I trust them so it's okay. I feel much better after the talk and I know what I need to do now.
Letting it all go so it doesn't hurt anymore. It's gonna be tough but I can do it. Bcos seriously, i'm sick of this confusing situation that I'm in. Not here, not there, sorry but I just can't accept it and I'm not going to make the effort to try to make things better from now on bcos I think this is all I've got to give and I'm all drained out.
I'm going to nap awhile and do some hw then I'm off to ahs. Can't wait to see my best friend!
& I LOVE ONENINE!!!!!!
